Walking to the bus today, I started feeling a bit anxious. I saw a long long line waiting for the bus and I knew I would have to stand up. By the time I got in, I placed my heavy backpack and prepared to balance myself and stand holding onto a pole. Then a nice young man who was sitting in a seat reserved for people with less mobility asked if I wanted the seat. In my mind, I thought to myself, “Well, let me see, the sign shows a cane and a blind person. Hmmm, why do many young people always choose that seat is beyond me!” I said, No thank you, but he stepped down. Okay, this is good, I thought.
Getting off the bus, people were pushing and shoving…one older woman asked me to go ahead of her to go down the 4 flights of stairs to get to the subway. “Oh, no, thank you, Ma’am, I will be taking a bit longer to get down.” And I proceeded to take one step at a time like a toddler…It irks me but I know it is temporary…or maybe not…who the heck knows.
Alright, rewind…I called the hospital for the 4th time today and finally got an answer to when they would call me with an appointment, the tape said, “About two years!” Are you kidding? I have time to screw up the other knee and need surgery for both! So that got me frustrated. I was thinking about the good health services I was accustomed to in Toronto. That was minutes before I left to walk to the bus…fast forward…
On the subway, it was pretty busy. I leave a bit earlier now that I walk slower but the crowd is not so nice…nope, I like my later, calmer, mellow crowd. People were pushing my knee…I have long legs, so even sitting down, my thigh to knee sticks out…so I have to put both hands on it to protect it from being bashed in. A young woman was standing next to my seat and kept leaning on me. I don’t know why because there was plenty of room to her left…probably wanted my seat…I guess.
When I finally stood up for my next stop, rather than make room she blocked my path, waited for me to go all the way around her in the moving, shaky subway and then she grabbed my seat. I wondered why she had such an “attitude”…she seemed very annoyed. I thought to myself, well, maybe she got in a fight with someone, maybe she has been pushed around enough on public transit…etc., and now she don’t take no hsit from anyone…the list was long on why she may be like this.
I realized I was fuming too and did not like it. So on the way out for my walk to work from the Métro, I chanted my mantra until I got in the elevator. Yep, even getting in the door it bugged me that people would not hold the door as they were getting out, everyone for themselves and that bugged me. Thank goodness I chanted my mantra for it did diffuse my bitchiness I was feeling and later I saw a really nice video of Amma that just made me nice and mellow the rest of my shift.
Talk about starting my day on the wrong foot…boy! Sure glad I turned things around…my mantra, that video and writing a few haiku for Carpe Diem`s Ghost Writer on haiku and humour just sprinkled the rest of the day with giggles and feel good vibes.
Oh, yeah, and I ate at my favourite restaurant, The Green Panther which is now located very close to the office, it is huge now and has wi-fi Here is a peek at my salad I had for dinner.
I shall go back when it is not too busy to take photos to add to my collection of eateries. This is a vegan place so my café au lait is with almond, rice or soy milk but it`s still amazing…fresh ground beans for each cup!
© Oliana Kim, 2014/09/17